Where Things Are...ish

Well, today was supposed to be the deadline to hear whether I'd been accepted to Illinois and Brown. I didn't get a call from either one. These were definitely the two schools I'd been most excited about and where I'd had the most positive experiences. I suppose they were also the ones with the steepest competition.
So.... yeah. I'm disappointed. And a little depressed. Regardless of how much I tell myself that it's not personal, it is. I failed, I wasn't good enough. I put myself out there on an extremely personal level and they didn't want me. Not enough anyway.
I want to believe that even if this door is closed, it's because there's a better plan. I don't want this to be a "shit happens" situation.
I don't know how long I'll have to wait to hear from Ohio or Idaho. I'd actually just re-sent all of my info to Idaho earlier this week. Adam suggested that maybe it's good that I don't have an exact time frame so that I'm not going through this intense waiting period again. I think I agree. So grad school isn't off the table yet, just a big set back.
Adam's been really sweet, he had flowers and candy waiting for me when I got home today. My phone is on time out for a while because I resent how tied to it I've had to be this week.
This weekend, Adam is starting his application processes for Blizzard (the software company that makes the computer game World of Warcraft) and Starbucks. I've gone through my whole application/interview process and depending on how that does or doesn't work out, it's his turn now.
I realized today when I got my next month's schedule for work that my name will only be on one more after this one. That's a beautiful thought.
Love you all, thanks for your prayers (and the wonderful birthday presents!).
Christian out.